Hmm. Simon just put two columns up of mine that i sent him at the beginning of the summer. As we all know, it's the end of the summer now, and to me, that means a lot has changed. For those of us who attend school, we are back there now. For those who are in the work force, they are still fucking working. But this rant isn't about work, play or summer activities. It's about friendship.
This is a column that really needs to be fucking written for the people who read stuff on this page. Over the summer I realized that many friends that I had when I live in Sturgis, I don't have anymore. It seems like some event or problem has kept me from people who I once considered "friends." It's a very strange feeling to see a person whom you used to love and not even THINK about giving them a hug, something you used to do, oh, so long ago.
These break-offs of trust don't bother me emotionally. Fuck emotions. They spiritually have nothing to do with this rant. However, physically, the situations make me fucking ill. It is weird that at the beginning of the summer, I was so happy, and wrote so freely about my pals, and now I detest all but a handful of people in this world. Just when you think you understand a person, or a friendship, something slaps you in the face. Over the summer and early part of fall, I have lost approximately 20 friends. This astounds me.
For the most part, I probably lost most of these friends before I knew I did. They realized that college changed me before I realized that it didn't change them. And they bailed. They were afraid of me acting differently toward them, and they couldn't deal with that. So they ran. Clusterfucking all the way, they ran.
I can't say that I'm unhappy now, necessarily, because I am happy. Although I can count the number of friends I've left on two hands, I came to the realization that the QUALITY of friendship is more important the QUANTITY of friends you have. So many people have cried over this, but do I cry? NO! Do you know why? I DON'T GIVE A FUCK!!!! Fuck these people! Fuck my friends! And fuck everone now that think about it.
I'm basically just trying to say that I'm done with all of my penned-up frustration about people playing "pseudo-friends" to others. It's really bullshit, and I recommend staying away from these people if you can. You know what to look for...
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People who prefer the company of money or other objects to people
People who pretend to care, but obviously aren't paying attention to what you're saying
Those who toy with emotions of any kind
Those who take everything confidential in your life, truth or not, and publicize it
Anyone who leaves a friendship relationship cause someone else told them it would be a good thing to do
Anyone who is greedy or selffish
A person who likes to whine about ANYTHING
A person who can't accept you for who you are, especially if you are ever-changing
A significant other who uses you as their "backup security blanket."
And finally, 10....hmm. Here's where you guys get to play...name the 10th, and in my rationalization, worst thing that any "friend" could ever be, and send it to me...
prine@rocketmail.com...and I'll come up with another rant finishing this one. I'm doing this because it's important, and because I'm REALLY fucking tired!!!!!
Good night cruel world....THE PUBLIC SUCKS – FUCK HOPE
